Don't Hesitate, Just Create

I waited...and waited...and dreamed...and waited some more to become good at something. I tried things, then quite because, compared to others online I was total crap. I felt discouraged, then moved to the next "big thing" that was going to make a difference in my life, and the cycle began all over again.

It took me a long time to realize that people at the top of the game didn't start there. It took them a long time to hone their craft. Why was I so arrogant to think I could be Beyonce after a couple voice lessons? Or Vince Van Gogh after watching some painting tutorials? I needn't give up so quickly. The best of the best practice for years before others discover their work.

Then I really pondered this question: Why was I getting excited about starting a new project, only to give up so quickly? "I think I'm a closeted ADHD person". I concluded that in the end, it didn't give me much joy. It felt like work, and when revamping my life, I should REALLY enjoy what I was doing. I should feel so proud of it that I should feel no inhibition about telling the world.

I eventually found that "thing" that gave me joy, kept my interest and -- this part's important-- fit into my lifestyle. For me, music production gave me a lot of joy, but it just didn't fit into my lifestyle of working full time and raising children. Not to say it would for other people similar to me (I knew other mothers who were very successful music producers), but it just didn't work for me. Of course, I felt like I was giving up, but I really wasn't because I eventually plan to circle back around if the stars align, and if my lifestyle allows it.

Now, as these words vomit out of my brain and onto the keyboard, I realize I'm really not good at blogging, but I don't plan to win any awards at it. Way into the future I could potentially get better that it, but for now my purpose is to be relatable, not "the best".

My main point about this post is...just start doing. If it looks interesting, try it for 6 months. If it still interests you and there aren't many barriers to creating, then immerse yourself in it. Learn, watch, observe, get better. Start sharing your work along the way, even if you feel like you suck at it. I have the utmost respect for those who reinvent themselves, and I think a lot of others do, too.

A little side note, I've never had patience for editing, so sorry if my writing sucks. I'm sure nobody is reading this just like my notes at my day job (a physical therapist assistant).